Happy New Year! In the flow of Nature, today is the first day of the light returning to the Earth in the northern hemisphere. I find it a great time for a new beginning in the flow of my own life and in relationship to the world transformation we are experiencing.
Yesterday, we celebrated the Winter Solstice in two phases. First we released the past and any habits/beliefs that we do not want to carry into the new year. Second, we received wisdom for our way forward with the question, “What do I need as I live from my deepest gifts and life purpose?”
It has been windy here on the Mount Shasta property. The huge pine trees, with there nearly bare long limbs with tassels of long needles at the ends, have been dancing and bobbing wildly the past few days. The wind has been the energy to wake me in the night to do shamanic journey work, and the one who called us outside yesterday to receive wisdom.
Walking around the property, feeling the wind and listening with my heart, I was guided to release the following things:
1) My focus on the mundane aspects of living this life with its specific challenges. I can not let my days be about the logistics of living an Earth-centered life in a motor home with the support of a warm cabin. It is time to just live with no special thought required. This is my life now.
2) My obsessive anticipating, calculating and carefully parcelling out our monthly income to pay our bills. There is a flow of resources which is sufficient for our basic needs. It is a flow I have experienced throughout my life, and it does not require my repeated attention to sustain us. Focusing of this only distracts me from the creative flow of offering the gifts that are mine to give.
3) My myths of not having the discipline, determination, motivation, stamina, or connection with creativity to complete the book I am writing. If I do not release these mental anchors, they will slow the unfolding of the words, pages and chapters of the book I want to let emerge into the world.
Returning indoors, I wrote these out. We then held a ceremony to feed these into the flames in our fire place and released them with the smoke to be transformed.
The second phase was to move directly into drumming and journey to see what ways will open before my feet. I received wisdom from the embodiment of my future self, who I know as Woman of the Mountain. I will share some of what she told me.
What you will share does not come from within you. Instead, the work that you are doing flows through as the culmination of the sacred work done by those seven generations, fourteen generations and twenty-one generations ago. They tend the well-spring of creativity which is the source of your words and creative work. Your task is to come with gratitude to these helping ancestors and to allow your work to move through you as a gift to the generations that will follow you.
I also asked for wisdom about the Spiritual Direction work that I will begin offering in 2020. Her response was:
Again, do not think of this as something of your own intellect and experience to be given to others. Instead, let yourself sink into the sacred relationship of trust and honesty as you experience it in the Unseen canyon lands. This is the container needed for both listening and companionship along the inner journey.
In deep gratitude for the ceremonies and wisdom of the Solstice, I step into this New Year.
Over the next few weeks, I hope that you too will take time to release all of the past that clings too heavily, and to find the deep well-spring to fuel the living of your life’s purpose in the year ahead.