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What Can I Do?

This Spring Equinox, I met with my Drumming Circle group to do shamanic journey work to the sound of the drum. It is always a powerful experience when we join together to seek wisdom from the Unseen World. Today, it rocked me back.

I journeyed on the question, “What can I do in response to current world events?”

Answer:  Extend you practice of Ho’oponopono, (of seeking forgiveness, taking full responsibility for your projections and illusions, and giving forgiveness) to the People of Japan and to the experience of the dropping of nuclear weapons on Hiroshima and Nagasaki.

The current world situation offers the opportunity to bring this dreadful wounding of the psyche of my country and of the Being of Humanity into the light and grace. It opens the way to healing the divisions we see among us, so we can return to the truth that all Humanity is one life.

Reclaiming Vital Life Energy

Two insights came this week that are helping me work with my own personal vital life energy in a new way.

I have often felt the flow of Universal Life Force energy moving in, around and through my body. What I had not recognized is that we each hold within us a reservoir of vital life energy which is our own to help keep this body, mind and soul healthy and balanced. I am seeing how to take responsibility for this energy and how to reclaim and reintegrate it when I have squandered it on the projections, assumptions and judgements that I send out into the world.

Appreciating this beautiful gift of life-enhancing energy, we each can find how it can fuel the life of our soul and the well being of our body.

 

New Challenges / New Reactions

We all face challenges in our lives when what ends up happening suddenly diverges from what we planned. Each time we face an unexpected shift, we get to see what thought patterns and assumptions automatically kick in to manage our sense of safety and well-being.

Bill and I hit this process at full speed this week. Without doing either of us humans harm, the motor home that we were preparing to sell decided to leave our lived in a different and more dramatic way. Our reactions were new and surprising, reflecting the benefits of the inner work we have been doing as part of preparing for the move.

My Relationship with the Cabin

This week, as I was working on the cabin, I experienced a change in our relationship. Instead of thinking of it as a “thing” to meet my expectations, I found it a partner and teacher.

This structure is made of the same elements as my body. We share in the experience of weathering the challenges of life and aging the best we can. As I recognize this, the cabin becomes a companion and teacher about honor and Sacred Reciprocity.

 

A Different Kind of Move

My husband and I are beginning the process of looking for our next home. This is not an unusual experience for the two of us. Throughout our married life we have moved every three to five years, often within the same community. They have been practical moves, determined by what our lives and work called for at the time.

This time is different.  Drawing from my work with the Unseen World, through shamanic journey and other practices, we are focusing envisioning what we want and need, and on clearing old thought forms that may get in our way.

Responsible for My Experience

I am often introduced to or reminded of some practice or ritual which immediately takes root in my life. Over the years this has happened many times, providing me with a rich reservoir of possibilities for ritual and ceremony. As each one has integrated into my practice it has been informed by and altered by what I already carry within.

This past week, I was reminded of the work of Ihaleakala Hew Len and his use of the Hawaiian Cleaning processes of Ho’oponopono. Ho’oponopono means to “make right” in the Hawaiian language. In this practice, you look at an encounter you have with someone else and what you feel as a result of that episode in your life. You then take full responsibility for your feelings, perceptions, and reactions, moving from “I am sorry. Please forgive me,” to “Thank you” and “I love you.”

It is a practice of clearing the sub-conscious mind of thought forms, and freeing the person who has come into your life to show you what needs to be cleared. Each time an encounter activates a protective or defensive reaction; fear, anger, guilt, shame, resentment, judgment, victim identity… it is an invitation to go within and explore one’s own experience.

This week, my teacher, Della, also reminded me of a ritual that we both learned from Sandra Ingerman.

I am deeply sorry for any harm I may have caused you in this lifetime or any other. I ask for your forgiveness.
I forgive you for any harm you may have caused me in this lifetime or any other. I release you.

One of my current challenges is expressing my soul’s gifts in more tangible ways and receiving a financial livelihood from this work. The day I was reminded of these practices, I was invited to put them into use. I had a mini-meltdown trying to complete financial paperwork for my health insurance.

Sharing with Bill, I found that the overreaction had roots from ten years ago, when I was the trustee for my parent’s estate and went through the legal process of the estate being sued.

That evening I decided to create my own inner cleaning ritual using the two practices I have shared above. As it unfolded, I also found myself using a ritual that had emerged several years ago in a shamanic journey, which I shared in an earlier blog, “Transforming Diminishing Energies.” I found these practices weaving around one another, strengthening and empowering one another.

After preparing for the ceremony, I put on a long recording of shamanic drumming. I went back in my memory to a settlement conference in a courtroom. This was the first time I met these key players and as I recalled that day I recognized the archetypal roles each participant stepped forward to play.

I focused on one individual at a time and began by apologizing for any harm that I may have done them, especially around this shared situation. Then I called back any diminishing energies I had sent to them through my words, thoughts and actions, at that time or in the intervening years. I asked for forgiveness.

As I shifted to forgiving, and focused on taking complete responsibility for my experience, everything shifted. I saw that all of my interpretations, projections, emotional triggers, and responses were within me. I was the one who created the feeling of being a victim or being bullied. This was not about the other person or their actions and words. It was the chance to acknowledge that my own conditioned filters and internal trigger points and work with them.

I finished by releasing the person from all responsibility for my experience. I found “Thank You,” emerging as I recognized this person’s willingness to play a role in my life and allow me to play a role in theirs. In some cases, the role they played for me was a tough one. I was filled with judgments and negative impressions of them that distorted their true being as a fellow spiritual traveler in this world.

As I finished with one, feeling that they were free from my thought forms, another would step forward. It was an hour later when I finished this process with the primary figures in this episode in my life.

The next day, I went through the whole practice again. There was less emotional energy this second time. Taking responsibility for my own experience was a bit more familiar. As I understand Ho’onoponopono, you move through this process each time the situation or person comes to your mind. I don’t know how many times these issues will emerge for my benefit. I will expand the work to include all of the people who were involved as I created my myths around money, earning, saving, and generosity.  I am willing to let this practice ripple through as a gift of clearing the way for the work of my soul.

This is on-going work as experiences carry us from one set of reactions and thought forms to another. As each one of us clears old thought forms that hinder us, we are all set free. Ihaleakala Hew Len speaks of this in a YouTube interview.

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As part of honoring my inner cleaning work I want to offer my gifts to support you as you clear the way for your soul’s full expression to emerge.

The process I envision begins with an email from you describing what you would like to clean or clarify in your life. A zoom session would follow, with me providing preparation for the ceremony, and either guidance or companionship as you move through the rituals that emerge from our work together. It often helps to have a witness to the continuing work you do and the shifts in your perspectives and reactions that occur. Follow-up contacts will allow us to check in for this sharing.

If you are interested in this, or other one-on-one work relating to your spiritual path, please use the Contact Me on this site.

Creating Like A Spider

Wenjun Zhu from Pexels

I took a shamanic journey the other day, seeking guidance on how to move forward in my soul’s work. I have been sharing visions and wisdom, images and messages from my shamanic journeys and dreams for several years. Now, I long to weave my experiences of the Unseen World into group discussions and classes, collected stories and books.
Before the journey, I asked for a guide to show me how to bring mystery and mysticism into substance and form. As the drumming began, I stepped through into a meadow lined with trees, which is one of my favorite places for lessons from nature beings. There I found Grandmother Spider waiting for me. 

Weaving a web is not a matter of taking threads that already exist and interlacing them. The intricate patterns that you love, emerge only after you have done the initial work of making the anchor strands that form the basis for the rest.

When you begin to create a web, you must form an original silk thread allowing its substance to emerge from your deepest being. You are creating with the strength of your heart and soul, and entrusting your life to this one filament . It holds you suspended as you continue to add to its length. There is no option to start a different strand, you are committed to this emerging.

You may spin a great deal of silk before anything happens. It is just you and the spinning process. Then, without warning, a breeze or the breath of Spirit comes along and carries you to an anchor point. When it connects, you release what you have created and return to a higher position again to start forming the next silken thread.

As you dangle mid-air from this new strand, you have no idea whether it will attach somewhere near the first or in a different direction. Enjoy the sensation of freedom as you swing in the breeze. You have no control of time or space. Eventually, you will touch the ground, a plant will offer an attachment spot or you will decide to go back up and begin again from another starting point.

From time to time, an animal or strong wind with come through and take apart all that you have created. Let it go, there is no hurry. Use patience and determination, resilience and calm as your guides.

Remember that you are not alone. All of the elements of nature surround you. Enjoy the sunshine and shadow. Release all fear and float in the breeze. This makes the work easier and more fun. The time will come when you will have enough anchor silks developed that you can begin weaving the more intricate portions of the web. But for now, creativity and grace are your tethers. Enjoy

Grandmother Spider

I was smiling as I reentered the ordinary world, coming back to my home and my chair. I am grateful that wise teachers appear when I hold a question. I like the surprise of seeing what form each will take, and how they will lead me from what I think I know to an insight that reveals the next step along my path. 

This process is open to all of us. I use a recording of shamanic drumming to help me make the transition. You may find that forming your question, and then quieting your mind opens the doorway to the Unseen through your imagination. The key is to open to the wisdom beyond the conditioned mind and separate sense of ego. Experiment with asking for loving guides and teachers to show you what you are seeking. Let me know what you find.

Peace and Joy,
Nancy

Beacon/Beckoning Circle

Approaching 2022, the word that ripples through me is “imperative.” It has an energy that propels me forward, insisting that I not hide behind excuses or wait to find the perfect form for my work before I share it.

The time has come in this evolutionary cycle of our species to share my highest and best offerings for the healing and transformation of humankind. I cannot wait for things to quiet down or the whole picture to come into focus. I must take my place in the Beacon/Beckoning Circle and allow whatever wants to be expressed through me to take tangible form.

The Beacon/Beckoning Circle is an image from a shamanic journey on Winter Solstice, Dec. 21, 2021.  I had receive it a few weeks before, but within the drumming circle ceremony, it took on a more vivid form.

My notes after the journey:

We are standing in a circle facing outward. All of our drums and rattles, bells and flutes, voices and instruments are helping to tune the Being of Humanity; to raise the vibration of all. This is part of the evolutionary unfolding of humankind in harmony with Gaia.
My guide tells me,
You are standing shoulder to shoulder, each a bearer of what your degrees of arch from this circle are pouring through from the Cosmic Soul. All are vibrant and all are equal. The streams of light from you overlap, echo those around you, amplify each others gifts, and add the unique quality of sacred energy flowing through your individual expression of life.

As you continue this harmony, this way of uniting your energies and openness to sacred flow, each of your brothers and sisters, mothers and fathers, sons and daughters will find their place among you. All will come to stand shoulder to shoulder, your light shining outward through all the Web of Life.

I have not been writing this past few months because I have been learning from a wide range of paths and practices about how to connect with the Unseen World. I had been hoping that some synthesis would emerge, but now I see that each is a portal or window into deeper reality and wisdom. I have been learning the value of each, not so I can somehow weave them together in my life practice, but so I can see that there are pathways of access to the Unseen Mystery, the True Reality for everyone.

I don’t know what I will share with you or in what order. I do commit myself to sharing whatever wants to be expressed on a regular basis. I will shine my own arch of light outward and hope that it will resonate with something within you to strengthen and encourage the way you share your light.

I love the thought of all of us standing shoulder to shoulder as we each find our way to respond to the imperative to nourish wholeness, unity and harmony throughout all of the life of Earth.

Peace and Joy for the coming year,

Nancy

Tell Us What You Do

“Tell us what you do,” is a common request as people meet one another for the first time. I heard it this past weekend as I took an online workshop. I had a few minutes to consider my response and made an important discovery when the words came out of my mouth.

“At this point in my life, I am focusing on living a shamanic life.” It was a simple, clear statement and I felt no pressure to explain it. As I write it again now, it rings true.

For much of my life I have tried to be in service to others by sharing spiritual insights and guidance. It has often led me to learn a new practice or have a new insight, only to pass it along to others as soon as possible. It has not seemed enough to be living my soul’s path, I have added the inner demand that I also find the words to share it. Most times this fails, because I am trying to use words to describe something  thoughts and concepts.

The benefit is that it has kept me connected with people who are doing similar explorations about how to live with freedom, joy, and love. The exchange of ideas and suggestions is one of the ways I receive nudges about what may be next along my personal path. The down side is that I often forget how unique we each are and that the wisdom that comes to each of us through direct revelation is the most precious and powerful.

In these past few months, I have remained more inward, seeking to explore and practice with vibration, tone and releasing the illusion of separation. The other day, I was listening to a wise woman, Monica Gagliano, describe our shared spiritual path. She spoke of going through a time when we reclaim the understanding that everything around us is alive and that all of these other beings have messages for us. We talk about our animal guides telling us this and the trees showing us that, developing rich relationships with all of these wonderful life expressions. “Then, we realize that there never was an Other,” she said with a smile, and lightening raced up my spine. That’s what I am looking for, longing for, and imagining is somewhere other than here in my life now.

I have been busy looking for the doorway into the unity of all of life. I have used my meditations to see the love that connects all of humanity, all energy and elements of the cosmos, all of the evolutionary unfolding of humankind with the soul and consciousness of Gaia/Creation/Source. But as soon as I use words, I have separated myself again from the union. There is no doorway because there is no wall. It is only my mind that has created a distinction between the Seen world of tangible expression and the Unseen world beyond all duality and separation.

I can sometimes feel it here in my chest or my belly or the space behind the middle of my forehead. There is that sweet sensation of just energy, light and vibration playing in and around and through the combinations of matter and space. But even as I have the thought, I am naming and making distinctions and trying to capture this so I can describe it to others. I want to invite everyone to this sweet spot, and in that longing, I begin to look again for a doorway that I can point to as the “way in.”

In these weeks, I am exploring vibration without attached meanings, and tones without words or images. I am learning from Jill Purce about Mongolian Overtone Chant which helps us to tune our being with the field of natural vibration as we listen. She tells us, “It is more important to hear the sound you are making than to make the sound you are hearing.”

I cannot explain what I am experiencing nor do I want to try to relay Jill’s insights. I will let this be a mini nudge to you and let you follow it if it is yours to explore. There are so many ways that our human family has discovered to leave the illusion of separation and dwell in a clear knowing that time, space and a self standing separate in creation are all figments of our imagination. The Mystery is so much deeper, richer and uncontrollable than my mind wants to let me entertain.

So, I return to where I began. I will write as the words flow and share when I feel I will burst if I don’t try to put language around the life and light that I experience. But I cannot tell you when that will be, or promise that it will sound reasonable or clear. It will be something I feel is deeply true for me, and may also be true for others. When and how these will appear, I don’t know. I can only return to the answer to what I am doing now, “I am living a shamanic life.”

Micro Nudges

In a time when the messages from the outside world seem more and more muddled, the ability to hone our inner listening can make a huge difference. When our conditioned thoughts are whirling from all of the input of human culture, it is not easy to pick up on inner wisdom that waits below the surface.

I am fascinated by the idea that within my being there is a place of union between my innate intuitive nature and a Sacred Source that reminds me of my place within the flow of life. I am grateful for this beckoning wisdom that teaches me how to focus in on what I call “micro nudges,” those hints about what to do in this moment of my life.

Micro nudges occur for me in the present moment. They are not interested in setting my schedule for the day or rearranging the items on my “to do list.” They are “micro” because they are subtle and give me freedom to ignore them. I must choose to shift from automatic pilot to being alert in order to notice them. They are “nudges” because they point me toward or away from a specific task or path, again in a gentle form. They are not energies that pull me out of danger, or grab and turn me between one step and the next. Their nature is polite and compassionate; just an invitation, not a demand.

Let me give you a couple of examples from the other day.

I had been concerned about the small rabbits that live at the edges of the front lawn, since I found a rabbit’s foot and leg bone out in the field a few days earlier. I had not seen my little friends and I was wondering if one had been eaten and the other gone to find safer housing.

As I was making breakfast, I remembered something that Bill wanted to have in the motor home. Instead of setting it aside until later, I felt the nudge to go ahead and take it out there now. I had just come back around the front of the motor home from my errand when I spotted one of the bunnies running under the bushes. It gave me a joyful glimpse and the reassurance that I was not to worry about them. Later that day I saw my usual pair of rabbits eating together near the bird bath.

It would not have mattered if I hadn’t followed the nudge, but in doing so I received a treat that added to my sense of connection with the wild creatures around me.

Later that same day, I found myself in a conversation with a woman outside Starbucks where I had gone to do some outside writing. I knew that my schedule was tight and that I was supposed to go to the post office before returning home, but I let myself relax into the exchange. She was one who gives and gives, and I was there to remind her that the light and love that she is sending to protect her family was also filling her being and nourishing her soul. My listening was a small gift she could receive as I obeyed the nudge to stay with her and open to her story.

By the time we finished talking, I didn’t have time to go to the post office, and this changed both my timing and my route. As I drove the back road home I spotted a dignified and strong animal standing in the road a short distance in front of me. It trotted off into a driveway as I slowly approached and then turned to look at me with golden eyes as I drove past. It was a coyote with a beautiful, rich fall coat and an agile body. It held eye contact with me for a moment, then turned and trotted on. The gift was a reminder that both rabbits and coyotes are part of the natural flow of this area.

If I had stopped the conversation short, or tried to push the errand to the post office into a confined time slot, I would have missed the coyote. My interpretation is that, as I open to listening within, I learn to feel the flow of life and receive the gifts that occur when I allow it to carry me along.

If you want to tune into the micro nudges in your life, (I firmly believe they are available to everyone, not just, “sensitive types,”) it helps to let go of habitual patterns. We often move through life in a dream-like state following the programing of our longtime habits. Breaking out of these opens a tiny window into other possibilities and the awareness of deeper connections.

For example, set your alarm clock for 5:58 instead of 6:00. Stop using one minute or 30 seconds on the microwave and punch in 58 seconds or 29. If you always brush your teeth starting with the outside of your top teeth, begin with the inside of your lowers. Instead of reaching for your usual breakfast items, put those to the back of the refrigerator or cupboard and look to see what interesting combination might offer you a unique meal of the flavors, textures, and nourishment your body wants this morning.

I know these may sound silly, but they provide a symbolic invitation to your inner being to align with the way this day is unfolding. You may be surprised how micro nudges can shake things up.

As you go through your day look for the times when you feel encouraged to step out of the patterned schedule and the way you always do things. Listen for just a moment before determining what is next, or what route you will take from A to B. Once you make a different choice, watch and see what emerges. It may be as simple as spotting a tree covered in lovely fall foliage or finding the ripe strawberries you have been craving at the store where you do not usually shop.

I also find that when I open myself up to this subtle inner guidance, I lose interest in the dramas in the world around me. When my attention is taken to a specific issue or need, I know I am there for a reason and watch for the appropriate response to what is right in front of me. I have the energy and insight to know my contribution because I have not been turned, tumbled and spun in circles by all the waves created by contrasting ideas in the outer world.

I hope that you will have fun experimenting with listening for the micro nudges that bubble up from your inner being as it feeds and is fed by all of creation. We are so much more connected within this amazing creation of light, energy and life than we can possibly imagine. Enjoy exploring what comes to you as you listen within.

Joy and Peace,

Nancy